Monday, May 23, 2011

Week Thirteen: Aiiieee!

Only a week left in the ├╝ber-stressful month of May. Fortunately, even with my mother's wedding (and accompanying cake, rehearsal dinner, etc.) I managed to lose nearly two pounds! Here's this morning's weigh-in:

258.6 lb.
Weekly Loss: 1.8 lb.
Net Total Loss: 35 lb.

It's hard to believe that in three months I've lost a full thirty-five pounds. I'm still eleven pounds ahead of where I had hoped to be at this point on the journey.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Week Twelve: Quickie

Too busy for a long post! I lost less than a full pound this last week, too many special occasions and a bit of over-indulgence but at least I didn't slide in the wrong direction! I'll try to do better this week. Monday's results were:

Weekly Loss: 0.8 lb.
Total Net Loss: 33.2 lb.

See you next week!

Thursday, May 12, 2011

To My Friends ...

Since this is strictly personal and nothing to do with my career as a writer or publisher, I wanted to put this here instead of my main website. It's not about my weight loss (though an unofficial weigh-in this morning puts me down into the 250s!), but there is something worth saying.

Last afternoon, I got a phone call from a friend I've literally known over thirty years—someone who I used to speak to every day and saw almost as much during the time we were neighbors. This morning I ran into a friend that was really there for me during the early separation from my ex-wife, who went out of her way to help me in ways both practical and emotional. And today I had to turn down an invitation from someone I adore—a woman I dated for a while and with whom still want to maintain a friendship, someone who also has gone out of her way to help me and my family. I absolutely want to keep her in my life.

It's not important that all three of these women share the same first name, even if it's an odd coincidence.

I know that in at least one of the friends mentioned above, there are hurt feelings and at least a little resentment that I'm ignoring or rejecting them. And they are not alone. I've experienced some of the same emotions from other friends who I used to chat with online more, talk to on the phone, or see out and about.

My feelings? Awful. I hate the feeling that I've let anyone down, that I'm not returning the attention, kindness, and favors that have been generously given to me. And I don't like the fact that I'm missing out on good times with some of my favorite people.

I hate making excuses, but there's not a lot of help for it in this case. For a while at least, my situation is what it is and there is less of me to go around than there ever has been before. In less than a year my life has taken a number of crazy turns. Currently ...

I'm a Single Dad. I'm now taking care of a thirteen-year-old girl and a ten-year-old boy, both in school. I live in a home with no other family, so I have to get everyone to/from school, cook meals, clean, do laundry, etc. on my own. And while they don't need 100% supervision at all times, I can't just go out like I did while the children were with their mother. I have to arrange for them to stay somewhere or get a babysitter.

I'm Working. I'm self-employed, and as anyone who's done this knows it's even more stressful than having a "regular" job. I have flexibility, but in return that means I'm always behind where I could be. I'm simultaneously pushing forward as a game publisher and freelance writer while tip-toeing my way into eBook publishing as well. I maintain a professional office in Marietta and have set up a desk in my bedroom so I can work from home whenever is necessary. Which is a lot. Right now I'm behind on several important projects—both for me and others, and I'm scrambling to catch up. (I should be working on those instead of this, but I really want my friends to understand.)

My Family Needs Me. Things are a little nuts in my family right now. My Mother is getting married a little over a week. (Congratulations, Mom!) We are still in the process of shuffling three households around (Mom's, my sister's, and mine) between Woodstock and Canton. My kids have needed plenty of extra care, including my son getting his tonsils out recently and still not quite back in school yet. And my youngest sister is having so many complications from her knee surgery over a year ago that she's not sleeping and on heavy medication, preventing her from being able to drive herself to work—so several days a week I spend extra time in the car for that purpose. None of this is easy, but we take care of each other in my family.

Travel! I've got a busy convention season coming up. I've been invited out to a lot of shows this year and it's a great opportunity to show off my new games and projects. I'm already going to have to figure things out with my family so that my children are taken care of when I leave town. Just see my schedule to get an idea of how nuts the next few months are going to be. Also means that more than a few weekends are just gone.

I Have a Girlfriend. For just a little while longer it's long-distance, but I've been blessed to find love again in my life. I don't get to talk to my girlfriend as much as I'd like and see her even less, but I try to take advantage of what opportunities we have with each other. Things are changing on that front soon, and when she moves I can't wait to introduce her to my circle of family and friends.

To my friends who've felt ignored, rejected, or neglected: I apologize. I have no doubt I could have done better to stay in touch, figured out better ways to manage my time or handle my schedule. (These are some of my weakest areas!) But please understand that I didn't just decide you weren't worth my time. I love you, care for you, and miss you. Things won't always be this complicated and crazy, and I hope that you'll stick around long enough for the dust to settle and be a part of my new life.

** Jamie

Monday, May 9, 2011

Week Eleven: Holy crap ... over thirty pounds!

This has been another crazy week. I've done a lot of exhausting, physical labor as I continue the process of moving three different households around. Lifting furniture and heavy boxes has left my body a knot of sore muscles covered in bruises. All the hard work paid off in results—even if I was a bit naughty at my daughter's birthday dinner yesterday.

Here's the official weigh-in:

261.2 lb.
Weekly Loss: 2.8 lb.
Net Total Loss: 32.4

Yep, I'm now officially down over THIRTY POUNDS. That's very exciting, but I've got a ways to go until I hit my next goal. People keep telling me how good I look and it's very exciting to see how my clothes fit these days, but I've still got a lot of work to do before I reach the destination on this particular journey.

It's exciting to think that by this time next week I'll be down into the 250s ... a weight-range I haven't seen for at least 12 years. Thanks for your support, everyone!

Monday, May 2, 2011

Week Ten: Sweating!

The air conditioning has been on the fritz right as mid-Spring kicks into full-gear ... in Georgia. That and there's been more furniture to move and rooms to clean as we begin a two week process of shuffling my mother, my sister, and I into our permanent homes. I got so busy that I didn't track my Weight Watchers carefully this week (though I tried to stay within my normal small portions and better choices). Resulting weigh-in this week:

264.0 lb.
Weekly Loss: 2.4 lb.
Total Net Loss: 29.6 lb.

All I have to do is lose one-half pound and I will have hit the 30 lb. milestone--which is exciting to say the least! My clothes fit differently and I feel like I'm more attractive for my girlfriend. Thanks for your support, everyone!